If you’re gonna kill your own mother who adopted you because you were an illegitimate child, then have the freedom to do so. But will that remove the fact that she cared for you more than what your actual mother will ever do? No. Straight up the act and stop bashing her for your dad’s wealth.

And I thought I was the jerk in this family. My cousin’s a bastard and that’s all he will ever be.

I gave up on this family a long time ago. I’m just staying with them so that I can return the favor. It’s all for survival and it will end soon.

PS: But I’m gonna keep mom, my aunt and my sis with me. They’re the only ones left for me.

I’ve been obsessing with a lot of things lately. Our paperworks, course outputs, and my internship. Yeap, I’m currently bombarding myself with work and it’s not really bothering me since I like what I’m doing. My dad, sis and aunt are planning to go their own ways and the fact that they’re deciding on that gives weight to my work. And since I’m gonna be graduating next year, I can’t help but think about the things I really want to do with my life.

There’s loads of things for me to do, not only in school but in my life. I can’t believe I said that but yeah. I need to pick things up fast so that I can cope up but my body is close to bugging down. 

Other than that, that conversation with my friend about the thing I had in the past is making me preoccupied during random times I remember it. I really don’t want to care about it since, you know, people move on and I should too and I don’t know if I did but the conversation keeps making me remember things I’m not supposed to remember. I’m completely lost tonight.

I don’t get it. When I’m not around, they prepare really good meals. But when I’m around, they prepare simple dishes & sometimes [like tonight] they don’t even prepare any.

It’s the 40th day since my grandmom said goodbye to us. So for traditional Filipino family settings, a party should be held. And right now, people are watching TV in the living room that I can’t pass anymore to get some more food. I wanna join the dudes and do shots but they’re all older than me, they’re not even dudes anymore, they’re my uncles. So I’m here in my room, doing random things that I don’t have any intentions of doing. Weird.